Thursday, April 27, 2006

Tiny Voices



She kicked her little legs in what was the beginnings of a huge fit. With nose crinkled and mouth open wide, she gave the first cry I'd heard escape her small lips in 71 days. It was a pathetic little cry, really- more like a croak- but, it was the best cry I'd heard all night. It was everything she'd been trying to say for the past 2 months, and it was proof that miracles do happen.

I remember, rather vividly, her birth. I was in the operating room for her mother's emergency c-section, and I watched as her tiny, one-pound body was taken from the womb that had been her protection for the past 5 1/2 months. The delivery was medically necessary- the only chance that either mother or baby had for survival- but, I still had that all-too-familiar tug of emotion and I wondered if I was witnessing the end of life.

But, that night she gave just enough fight to convince us that she may be a 'beat-the-odds' kinda girl. And, despite all doubts, she survived her first hours of life.

Her survival, up to this point, has been dependent on a tube down her throat connected to a breathing machine. But, last night, after deciding that she may be ready to breath on her own, we removed the tube from her throat, and gave her the first chance she's had in 71 days to find her voice. It took her, however, several hours to croak out that first feeble cry.

In that moment, I realized that hearing a baby cry for the first time- whether immediately upon delivery, or several months after the fact- was a sound that I never grew tired of hearing.

Surprisingly, in spite of the constant reminders I'm shown of life's miraculous nature, I frequently forget to stop and acknowledge it.

But, I am always awed by the tiny packages that God uses to remind me of what I've already learned a thousand times over: Life happens for a reason and life is a miracle.

Sometimes it's the smallest voice that communicates the biggest truth.


8 Comments:

Blogger Trey said...

Wow...it must be really inspiring to work in a place where miracles visibly happen right and left--even in spite of the fact that the other side of coin must be endured there as well.

Thursday, April 27, 2006 8:51:00 AM  
Blogger Jen said...

Wow Emily...wow. The pictures are beautiful and so is your perspective. I take for granted this thing called "life". That I am living and breathing....it is a gift and a miracle!

Thursday, April 27, 2006 11:15:00 AM  
Blogger Jen said...

First I must say again how jealous I am of you going to Sudan. :) Think I could squeeze into your carry-on? :)

Second, you WILL make a difference. It may not "seem" to be big or world changing in light of the vast amount of things to be done, but something as simple as hugging a child or helping the sick can be life changing to each heart you touch.

I am a HUGE fan of short-term mission trips, but as I told the group I went with last year....you do AND will make a difference, but usually YOU are the one changed the most. And though that seems selfish when you are trying to do a very selfless act, if you allow God to speak and open your eyes, it CAN be life changing to you and cause a ripple effect to those around you.

Emily, it will be great!

Thursday, April 27, 2006 12:13:00 PM  
Blogger Trey said...

Thanks for your comment! If you do get a chance to watch the films, let me know what you think!

And, yes, I'm gonna be in the Big D this weekend. I hope there's time for me to meet with all of you; I guess that relies on whatever Christian's got up his sleeve! :)

Tuesday, May 02, 2006 3:24:00 PM  
Blogger Trey said...

Whoa...I'm just gonna leave that one alone. ;)

Tuesday, May 02, 2006 3:43:00 PM  
Blogger Micah said...

Wow! Having a 10 month old, and being pregnant again, needless to say, that made me cry. It was also a very strong reminder of the sense of relief I felt the very first time I heard my baby cry. Thank you for that beautiful imagery.

Thursday, May 04, 2006 2:16:00 PM  
Blogger Trey said...

I had a great time with y'all Saturday night; lots of fun all around! Hopefully I'll ricochet back in the direction of Dallas in the not-so-distant future.

Monday, May 08, 2006 8:27:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I know that you don't know me and you commented on Jason's blog some time ago the following. "Who is Rose? She commented on my blog too ('mental paper jams...')" I'm just someone who was surfing new blogs. I hope you didn't mind my comment? Anyway this was a beautiful post and the photos were lovely.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006 1:05:00 PM  

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