Wednesday, November 09, 2005

I am me

You ask me who I am, and the answer is simple:

I am me.

I am a girl with a fast beating heart. Made from billions of cells, I'm a molecular marvel- a miracle of life.

I have complicated ideas about this world and myself, and how my self figures into this world. I am the sum of a thousand dreams and countless wishes made on fallen eyelashes and coins tossed at wells. I hold my breath and say silent prayers through long tunnels.

When you ask me who I am, I know the answer immediately:

I am me.

I'm a girl who makes messes and still wonders why life is messy. Sometimes, I'm the girl who cries wolf, and sometimes I'm the wolf in sheep's clothing. I am as complex as I am simple. I cry when my heart says laugh, and laugh to keep from crying. I throw caution to the wind and I color outside the lines using bright red paint. I drive too fast and walk too slow and sometimes lose my way.

I am exactly who I was created to be:

I am me.

And, while everyday I find a hundred new reasons why I'll never be good enough- I always have one reason why I already am:

I am His.

16 Comments:

Blogger cr said...

Wow, Emily, that is great! It seems like for the past few months the major recurring themes I've heard coming at me are 1) Where is my heart in the matter? and 2) Who am I? It would seem that when we understand these things in light of Christ, the straight and narrow becomes much more illuminated, though the choices don't necessarily become any easier. We have a tough adversary who wants to slow our progress, but it is so much easier to trust in our Lord when we realize who we are in Him, and then we don't have to pay attention to the lies of the enemy. Great writing!

Thursday, November 10, 2005 7:37:00 AM  
Blogger Toph said...

Such confidence being a child of His should give....

Great Piece!

Saturday, November 12, 2005 6:05:00 PM  
Blogger Creth said...

I have never seen a hardback copy... never, isn't that weird?

Tuesday, November 15, 2005 11:13:00 AM  
Blogger amy said...

"My beloved is mine, and I am his...the Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God...joint heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him, that we may also be glorified together...so that you may be blameless and pure, children of God who are faultless in a crooked and perverted generation, among whom you SHINE LIKE STARS in the world."

You are a star.

Thursday, November 17, 2005 11:21:00 AM  
Blogger Creth said...

inspiration is fickle, but it's been more than ten days...

come on, write something

Monday, November 21, 2005 7:38:00 AM  
Blogger Creth said...

yes, I decided they weren't all bad... memories

Monday, November 21, 2005 11:47:00 AM  
Blogger Creth said...

goodness... I have no idea who I would invite to a dinner party...

if I were to make a completely (random?) arbitrary list I might include-

Charlie Rose
John the Baptist
C.S. Lewis
Stanley Kubrick
and
the girl I'm going to marry

if one of those weren't available I would substitute Troy Aikman in their absence

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 12:24:00 PM  
Blogger Creth said...

and the dynamics of the group?

Charlie Rose would love every minute of it (and he would "facilitate" the conversations)

John the Baptist would get fidgety

C.S. Lewis would like to talk with Stanley Kubrick

and Stanley Kubrick might not care

eventually Stanley Kubrick would play ping pong with John the Baptist and Lewis would observe

Lewis would encourage Rose's "facilitation"

the girl I'm going to marry might not understand why she's having dinner with the five fellows...

...give it a few years, she'll look back with fondness

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 12:35:00 PM  
Blogger Creth said...

wow.

you practically facilitated my butt back to China with that question

(and... within your "word verification" were the letters "b-m-w" in the correct order... that's almost a word?.)

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 12:38:00 PM  
Blogger Creth said...

the only reason Troy didn't make the cut was that I knew, and I know... that if he were there, I would do nothing but ignore the other guests and try my hardest to touch him

Troy Aikman. if you are reading this. please. please contact me. I love you. I really, really love you.

214.555.2528 ;-).

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 1:10:00 PM  
Blogger Creth said...

I'm not going to explore the path that my "butt" has taken to "China"

and "yes"

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 1:12:00 PM  
Blogger Creth said...

again?

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 1:17:00 PM  
Blogger Creth said...

"go home"

you act as though you're not from "around here"

which I mean, you're not... but still

also, who made your dinner party list? and who were you talking with about Troy?

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 1:25:00 PM  
Blogger Creth said...

and how do you know Faith and Beth?

they know Natalie...

and this world keeps getting smaller...

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 1:37:00 PM  
Blogger Creth said...

Hemmingway.

I wouldn't wanna have dinner with him...

I'd wanna trade shots or something (of course I'd lose but...)

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 1:39:00 PM  
Blogger Creth said...

understood and understood

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 2:05:00 PM  

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